and i am.

lol. i know you are bad with listening out for lyrics in songs.
change most stuff to past tense though. you think i don't read it but i do. sometimes i laugh. sometimes i feel a deep sadness. i don't think i need or even want to explain anything to you. if you have those opinions about me, if that's what you need to get better, that's fine. despite what you think, i still do care about you, how could i not, after so long?

i could write about how much it hurt or all that other stuff, but i really don't want to rehash all that anymore. i think i am just really tired of this.

like the song says. gonna smile cause i deserve to.

i might have finally found someone who deserves me. and whom i deserve. que sera sera.