stop.

so here i go again.

and i am.

lol. i know you are bad with listening out for lyrics in songs.
change most stuff to past tense though. you think i don't read it but i do. sometimes i laugh. sometimes i feel a deep sadness. i don't think i need or even want to explain anything to you. if you have those opinions about me, if that's what you need to get better, that's fine. despite what you think, i still do care about you, how could i not, after so long?

i could write about how much it hurt or all that other stuff, but i really don't want to rehash all that anymore. i think i am just really tired of this.

like the song says. gonna smile cause i deserve to.

i might have finally found someone who deserves me. and whom i deserve. que sera sera.

thank you

for being there for me when i need you. even though it's not immediate, at least you are more than willing.

the feeling of having someone that you know you can count on at any time, is just.....

:)

what if

what if. it happens all over again?

:(

petrol

yea i bet this topic is on blogs across malaysia. have to put my 2 sen worth.

today is the first day i didn't drive all the way over 60km to Diehard's place. wow. big milestone in my life. cos everytime i press a little harder on the accelerator pedal, a little voice starts singing in my head.

78 sen....78 sen...78sen...

sigh. guess i won't be called iron foot from now on. :D

the land beside the sea

so after hearing so so so much about this place, i finally went to the end of the world. lol ok not end of the world, just felt like it cos you just keep driving till you run out of road then you know you're there.

sorry, no photos. i decided to just savor everything with my eyes instead of looking thru a camera lens for once. and, if i don't take photos this time, then i'm allowing myself another chance at going there again.

it was fun. beautiful. romantic. exciting. comforting. relaxing.

thank you for making my life better :) and for giving me something i will never forget.

tomato plants

and now the song comes back to haunt me.
do i ruin lives? i feel like a natural disaster :P or maybe as Ting liked to say, i put myself too much at the centre of the universe.

but doesn't everybody? :P