essentials for your carry-on luggage

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1. toothbrush. seriously never know when you will need it. like me. now. in a hotel room without any toothbrush. and it's the Sheraton. :S

2. flip-flops. ever since Beijing, i have come to realise that, no matter how old or where you are (except maybe in places where you could get frostbite), you will always need to wear flip-flops. i now have two great big blisters on either foot because i wanted to make a good impression.

3. cellphone charger. even if you are superbly confident that your cell will last till forever. cause it won't. and you will need it.

4. extra tshirt. the lightest, thinnest one available.

5. snack bar. in case you have no food and the cheapest thing available still costs about rm30 :S

6. CREDIT CARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am so. so. so. lucky. to have one.

7. the phone number or contact of the person you know can calm you down, even in the freakiest of situations.

oh wait. you already have that in your head, don't you? :)

goodnight.

shit.

shit. shit shit shit shit.

i am in a hotel room directly opposite Frankfurt Airport now. This has been one of the most harrowing days of my life.

more later.

wow.

28th June, 2008. 6.30 a.m, Frankfurt time.

So here I am sitting in the United Airlines lounge at I have no idea what time in the Frankfurt airport. Another new turning point in my life. I’m beginning to think that I might already have too many of those in my life.

Actually the whole way, I was feeling rather blasé about the whole thing. I have been waiting for about half a year for this after all! It just gets to the point where you want to just get it over with. There was this great big and tall American daddy who had his Chinese

(wow I just saw a guy who looks like an oldd David Boreanez)

wife and 2 kids with him, a boy and a girl. The wife had a beautifully soft Beijing accent and I thought how wonderful it was for the kids to be growing up learning two languages at once. I particularly envied the little girl. Her dad was hugging her and playing with her and she just looked so tiny in his big frame.

By the way. I don’t think there’s a single Asian in this lounge except for the two Filipino ladies at the counter. Bleh. Get used to it, right?

Anyway, the daddy was talking to his little girl about landing in Frankfurt and he said in a singsong voice to her “we are landing in Germany”. And then it just hit me.

I am landing in Germany.

Why?

Because I’m going to the United States to meet and live and work with people that I completely do not know at all. It’s going to be a whole new culture, with barely any Asians, as compared with my first time in Perth before, and I have this gigantic fear that l will not be able to live up to the irritating reputation of being the Old Man’s daughter, whom all worship and fear.

The Old Man I mean. Not me. Obviously.

As Diehard would say. Holy $h!t!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ooh. Filipinos speaking German. The wonders of globalisation.

ohh.. speaking of Diehard. Yes. Several of the Caucasians around are quite easy on the eye. But honestly. Do I care? I just look dejectedly at their chiselled faces and remember large brown eyes on top of a gigantic but adorably sensitive nose. And the rest of the whole package.

Cue the extremely-long-drawn sigh.

Oh well. We have determined that this is definitely positively the path I should be taking. I will be strong! I will be independent! I will be…

Damn I’m tired. Talk to you when I get to W-S.

the very last time

Old Man has been planning on selling my black baby #2 for quite some time now (baby #3 being my new Toshiba Satellite, no prizes for guessing #1!). on thursday morning i heard a loud *beep beep* and went down to see him behind the wheel of THIS monstrosity:
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omg omg omg. the colour. i love the whole car! but the colour leaves MUCHH to be desired! sigh...got cheated yet again by the OldMan who promised he'd look into the slightly older white one. oh well, leaving Friday anyway, so will be siasoi only for another 6 days.

holy crap. that fast huh?! *panic alarm bells going off in head*

five seconds later...
so went to Garden Hill with a variety of very fun people, including Ms.Alco2 :D:D:D have a safe flight back to KL and so glad to have had the chance to meet up before you left! took the chance to drive my black baby out today, and after dropping Diehard off, had this sudden compulsion to go to my usual route.

yea ok, i admit. was feeling.........
is there no other word for it than emo?!?!?

just cos a particular song came up on my cd. even though there are no emotions anymore, i guess i just had to make REALLY sure. in the end, i drove up not even halfway and came down again.

cause i realise i didn't need it anymore.

i have a lot to look forward now, thanks to someone's unfailing patience. :) so i realise also that i don't need a lot of drama in my life, nor do i need to feel like i have to explain anything or justify my actions to people who, honestly, are not even worth a second of my time.

wow. i have come a really long way huh? but my black baby helped me a lot, she was the one who accompanied me through a lot of angst-filled, long and lonely nights. so here's to her, and may her next owner treat her well and not prematurely send her to a junk yard.

i'll treasure my last days with you, and always remember you :D:D:D


Nov 2006- June 2008

my new bayybee

lol ok i had to type like that cos the other word is reserved :D but anyhooz i jus got this yest, with the help of (brainwashing ppl into liking HP but i didn't give it!!) darling Angelic-Scamp (we should really get you another nickname this is too long!) who walked with me for like 3 hours in Low Yat! thank you thank youuu for that AND the lunch at Old Town AND waiting for me while i went to get my passport which took agES :P in these days of nearly RM3/l petrol, you are a TRUEEE friend!

actually was lazy to post about anything, even this trip to KL but listening to alicia keys pouring out of the fantastic harman/kardon speakers on my lappie, i just couldn't resist! the sound is damn fantastic wey.

"it had to be you....wonderful Toshiba you...it had to be youuu~~"

edit:this is how much i love you,my satellite~ :D:D:D:D

stop.

so here i go again.

and i am.

lol. i know you are bad with listening out for lyrics in songs.
change most stuff to past tense though. you think i don't read it but i do. sometimes i laugh. sometimes i feel a deep sadness. i don't think i need or even want to explain anything to you. if you have those opinions about me, if that's what you need to get better, that's fine. despite what you think, i still do care about you, how could i not, after so long?

i could write about how much it hurt or all that other stuff, but i really don't want to rehash all that anymore. i think i am just really tired of this.

like the song says. gonna smile cause i deserve to.

i might have finally found someone who deserves me. and whom i deserve. que sera sera.

thank you

for being there for me when i need you. even though it's not immediate, at least you are more than willing.

the feeling of having someone that you know you can count on at any time, is just.....

:)

what if

what if. it happens all over again?

:(

petrol

yea i bet this topic is on blogs across malaysia. have to put my 2 sen worth.

today is the first day i didn't drive all the way over 60km to Diehard's place. wow. big milestone in my life. cos everytime i press a little harder on the accelerator pedal, a little voice starts singing in my head.

78 sen....78 sen...78sen...

sigh. guess i won't be called iron foot from now on. :D

the land beside the sea

so after hearing so so so much about this place, i finally went to the end of the world. lol ok not end of the world, just felt like it cos you just keep driving till you run out of road then you know you're there.

sorry, no photos. i decided to just savor everything with my eyes instead of looking thru a camera lens for once. and, if i don't take photos this time, then i'm allowing myself another chance at going there again.

it was fun. beautiful. romantic. exciting. comforting. relaxing.

thank you for making my life better :) and for giving me something i will never forget.

tomato plants

and now the song comes back to haunt me.
do i ruin lives? i feel like a natural disaster :P or maybe as Ting liked to say, i put myself too much at the centre of the universe.

but doesn't everybody? :P