heavy heavy head

and possibly

sounds fun and exciting! but planning for it? omg headACHE man..

i'm sure it'll be worth it though!

just go for it, cause i probably won't get a chance for a holiday like this for a long, long time.

and YOU, you damn idiot, putting so many questions in my head now. but i have to admit you are right about most things though. but still. my argument is that ignorance is bliss.

i guess my main question now, that applies to evrything is, should i just seize the chances that come to me? or just play safe?

somehow, losing someone close to you changes your whole big-picture view. on one hand, life is short, you never know what may happen, so just do what makes you happy and throw yourself into the moment.

on the other hand. be realistic and think that, no, you won't die in the next second, you have to think things through in the long term and 'do the right thing', or take the safe option.

ugh. headache and backache. going to lie down.