*poof*
sorry. you may be comfortable this way but i am hurting inside. i don't want to be hurt again.
Thank you`!!!
i was drifting in and out of a boredom-induced coma when a surprise sms came in the early afternoon today. so about a hour and a half ago, my knight in shining black armor showed up in THIS!!!
no it's not the exact same car but very similar, i am so sakai over getting to ride in it ok~!! and i don't even have to admit it, cause evryone knows i'm sakai hehe :D yes i know it's just a car, but ohhh look at it~~ so nice and BLACK and shinyy....~~
anyway... THANNKK YOUU~!!! A bigbig thankyou to you, Ink'D~!! for taking time out of your busy wedding day schedule to have a drink and a long talk with me. (no, dear readers, not his wedding! :D not yet anyway!) your honesty, opinions and good advice are very very much appreciated. i feel a whole lot better now after busting my brains for 2 days trying to figure things out. i don't know if i am able to put your advice to good use, but please know that you've made me feel a HEAP WHOLE LOT better about myself~!!
and daannngg boy you look good in a suit :D:D:D like barney stintson! but not pervy and sex-crazed tho :D hugs man. thanks again :)
no it's not the exact same car but very similar, i am so sakai over getting to ride in it ok~!! and i don't even have to admit it, cause evryone knows i'm sakai hehe :D yes i know it's just a car, but ohhh look at it~~ so nice and BLACK and shinyy....~~anyway... THANNKK YOUU~!!! A bigbig thankyou to you, Ink'D~!! for taking time out of your busy wedding day schedule to have a drink and a long talk with me. (no, dear readers, not his wedding! :D not yet anyway!) your honesty, opinions and good advice are very very much appreciated. i feel a whole lot better now after busting my brains for 2 days trying to figure things out. i don't know if i am able to put your advice to good use, but please know that you've made me feel a HEAP WHOLE LOT better about myself~!!
and daannngg boy you look good in a suit :D:D:D like barney stintson! but not pervy and sex-crazed tho :D hugs man. thanks again :)
thou shalt not
since she's gotten home, Tassie and i have reverted back to the old days of occasionally letting a really small matter amuse us to the point where i am clutching my stomach in pain, tears pouring down my cheeks from laughing too hard and trying not to look at her for fear i may never ever stop laughing ever again.
tonight was one of those nights. it started with a thumb war when i accused her of cheating and right after that, she won fair and square. the element of surprise is always against me :P. i don't know what got into me but after that i asked her if she would help me break one of my commandments.
thou shalt not smoke.i've been breaking a lot of them over the years. thou shalt not date a smoker. thou shalt not date a younger guy. thou shalt not date a housemate. oh well. they are not such completely bad commandments to break. but there are reasons for not breaking them in the first place. such as: the bad taste, the clash of opinions, the complications that arise when the both of you are no longer dating.
the reason i am breaking this commandment? to be brutally honest, simple curiosity and also, to tell the smokers that i meet, yes i have tried it and yes, it sucks like shit.
it was a hilarious experience though. one of the things i love about Tassie is that she never questions my decisions unless of course she thinks it's a seriously bad idea. and hardly anything is a seriously bad idea to Tassie. She brought me outside and we sat in the wrought-iron chairs while i held the cigarette like an incense stick to try and light it. of course i was trying to be funny!
um. anyway.
so she demonstrated to me how to suck in, open your mouth, inhale and then exhale the smoke out. at least i think that's how it goes. we were laughing so hard the whole time. i think i only got it right two times. and yes dear readers, i did cough. both times. not too badly though. apparently the way i hold the cigarette is freaking noobish. in the end i just held it like a joint. lol. i think i wasted half the cigarette just holding it and bent over laughing my ass off. as we were about to finish, a god-like shout came from above.
"come up here!!"
the Old Man has just got back from two weeks worth of business travel. poor baby. anyway, after he yelled, i was just about to run upstairs like the good obedient puppy-daughter i am (heh) when i suddenly realised the situation i was in and clapped my hand over my mouth. that only brought on another torrent of gasping laughter for Tassie and i. luckily he had brought back some mints from HK (heyy they're forest berry flavoured ok!) and i grabbed two before running upstairs.
found this on the net thanks to visionary-girl.blogspot.com. it's the exact same ones that the Old Man bought back! they must be popular flavours.i thought i was in deep shit but he only wanted me to put on some Skin Repair lotion on his back. geeeez. i thoughtfully warmed it between my hands before i rubbed it on too! what a good daughter am i :)
so. now my hands smell like Diehard's used to do. kinda nice actually. :) Tassie is going to buy some Vogue for me tomorrow. no, not the magazine.
i promise i won't be addicted! :D
membanteras penyakit denggi!
today the government gave me free Ridsect.that is good cause i am getting a lot of mosquito bites.
the Old Man is so not seksi with his shirt off. how to find girlfriend like that? :D :D :D nm i still lub yew daddy!
speechless
and here it comes again.i don't know what to say and it is just as well because i know (and yes i know) that nothing anyone says now is worth saying.
but you know i'll be there for you. and that's a given. no matter our situation.
cheese omelette.
Congratulations
a first in history. i am sure you will do them proud.
just don't forget the rest of us?
All Soul's Day
am i a day late?
anyway, here's to you. time does not heal all wounds. just makes it slightly bearable.
apologies for the non-updates. don't think you want to read all emo shite right now, eh? maybe i'll put up New York tomorrow. i owe DBS that much.
Menthe l'eau.
image credits to cakochocolat of flickr.my new favourite drink?
although the one i had was blue. blueblueblue..
Joyeux anniversaire to me~
24.
and i still feel like i haven't learnt anything.
in an hour and a half i will be flying home. and everything will seem like it was years and years ago.
c'est la vie :)
and i still feel like i haven't learnt anything.
in an hour and a half i will be flying home. and everything will seem like it was years and years ago.
c'est la vie :)
Stuck again!
so i'm in Charlotte Airport now, about 3 hours after being informed my flight to JFK has been delayed (TWICE) from 1.50 to 3pm then 5.30pm!! walked around for a bit then my freakin lappie bag got too heavy for me and was searching allll around for a powerpoint to charge my Tosh baby..so finally settled for Burger King!
Charlotte Airport has graciously offered wireless internet throughout the place, so i'm able to pass time and blog while enjoying my Double Whopper with fries and Dr Pepper (mmm :)))
i guess anything is good when you're hungry! but this is amazing (hey i haven't had a bite to eat all day k!!)! two luscious juicy beef patties with spongy sesame seed bun, actually crispy lettuce and tomatoes which the juice hasn't been all wrung out of!best part: tangy green pickles...mmmm..............
fries are good too! but still can't wait to eat NYC food with DBS + 1 tonight~! yay yaayyy~~~
My Last Day
was like..
rushing around, freaked out i couldn't get my last project done in time..cold, wet, running from one building to another, getting my jeans soaked, clacking around in my impractical but strangely comfortable Aerosoles wedges, having my badge taken away (! *sob*)
frantically taking photos, feeling a strange (VERY FREAKING STRANGE) sense of detachment as i said goodbye to everyone. is this my way of dealing with difficult moments now?
i'm still on Mac-mode, doing alt+(key) instead of Ctrl. i am going to miss that glorious widescreen.
i will miss everyone. some people more than most. found a friend in the last place i expected. i hope it's mutual. the conversations have kept me sane for all this while.
did a last and final (insert name here) and left my adapter and phone charger at the office. JEEZ. lucky that JK is home sick and could get the computer cord off her. so, back to the office on Monday i guess!
it was fun :)
3 days to New York. phoo.....i'm nervous.
bright lights, big city. bring me back to me..
rushing around, freaked out i couldn't get my last project done in time..cold, wet, running from one building to another, getting my jeans soaked, clacking around in my impractical but strangely comfortable Aerosoles wedges, having my badge taken away (! *sob*)
frantically taking photos, feeling a strange (VERY FREAKING STRANGE) sense of detachment as i said goodbye to everyone. is this my way of dealing with difficult moments now?
i'm still on Mac-mode, doing alt+(key) instead of Ctrl. i am going to miss that glorious widescreen.
i will miss everyone. some people more than most. found a friend in the last place i expected. i hope it's mutual. the conversations have kept me sane for all this while.
did a last and final (insert name here) and left my adapter and phone charger at the office. JEEZ. lucky that JK is home sick and could get the computer cord off her. so, back to the office on Monday i guess!
it was fun :)3 days to New York. phoo.....i'm nervous.
bright lights, big city. bring me back to me..
Alicia Keys - No One
truth?
truth is..this song makes me feel happy. it reminds me of a Valentine's night where i was just getting to know someone who would show me a different kind of love and care i'd never had before. the song was blasting from a club downstairs and i had that miniscule, fluttering feeling of getting to know someone for the first time and finding out you like the things you're finding out. a lot.
yes, it's different. very different. but why would i want what i had before? they obviously didn't work.
so, if you tell me it's the truth, i would be very happy indeed.
Fragrant Rice - Jay Chou
when i feel like absolute crap, you always know how to cheer me up! yay~ can't wait for your album.
even though you ARE a capricorn. guess it can't be helped.
追不到的梦想 换个梦不就得了
so true! :)
hai gua...hai gua.. :))))))))
13 minutes
to 12am. i feel like i'm back in the days of refusing to sleep cause i didn't want to waste time.
then after that. it was simply because i could not. because if i lay there, in the dark, alone, everything would come rushing to me at once. and it was unbearable.
maybe i'm just feeling uncomfortable (read: ngiawy) because the cat isn't with me tonight. or that i botched up my hair-curling, which i knew i would.
yes, i'm writing randomly. i just feel like blogging.
i should be excited. in a week and 3 days i will be exploring one of the greatest cities in the world, my dream city since i was in primary school.
maybe that will do it. bring that feeling of wonder and amazement and rush that i miss so much from the old me.
it's all your fault.
then after that. it was simply because i could not. because if i lay there, in the dark, alone, everything would come rushing to me at once. and it was unbearable.
maybe i'm just feeling uncomfortable (read: ngiawy) because the cat isn't with me tonight. or that i botched up my hair-curling, which i knew i would.
yes, i'm writing randomly. i just feel like blogging.
i should be excited. in a week and 3 days i will be exploring one of the greatest cities in the world, my dream city since i was in primary school.
maybe that will do it. bring that feeling of wonder and amazement and rush that i miss so much from the old me.
it's all your fault.
McDonalds country ham biscuit
so i was sitting at my desk idly flicking through news and wondering when i would finally appreciate the rumblings in my tummy and go heat up yet another muffin for my first bite of the day.
image taken from http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2201/2448552537_38c01882c9.jpg?v=0
suddenly an angel in a cable-knit sweater descended and presented me with this! thank you SO much, R! ladies and gentlemen, i present to you the best thing since sliced bread, the McDonalds Country Ham Biscuit!
yea. i thought it was a cookie too. it's southern for BUN!
omg. biscuits are. the BEST thing. crumbly fluffy, still-warm, with a delicious salty piece of country ham in the middle. last night i had one KFC biscuit and i sopped up my sambal sauce with it. WOW. MAN.
4 weeks more and i will try the recipe out back home in the kitchen!
image taken from http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2201/2448552537_38c01882c9.jpg?v=0suddenly an angel in a cable-knit sweater descended and presented me with this! thank you SO much, R! ladies and gentlemen, i present to you the best thing since sliced bread, the McDonalds Country Ham Biscuit!
yea. i thought it was a cookie too. it's southern for BUN!
omg. biscuits are. the BEST thing. crumbly fluffy, still-warm, with a delicious salty piece of country ham in the middle. last night i had one KFC biscuit and i sopped up my sambal sauce with it. WOW. MAN.
4 weeks more and i will try the recipe out back home in the kitchen!
a hole in my wallet
i finally found a place to stay in NYC. the money is probably not worth it, but i bet Old Man stopped sweating when i told him the location, a block away from Times Square. here's a preview..
its right next to the Majestic Theater which hosts the Phantom of the Opera play. so i don't really have an excuse to go...even if i fork out $37 for a seat all the way in the back, i can still say i watched the Phantom in NYC!
so the trip is less than a month away and let me tell you, i seem to be not good at all on saving money for it...if you want to come to Winston-Salem and shop, MommyK is your best guide!
i always thought that i would love to have someone pick out stuff and say 'here, get this', and i found her! she's helped, or actually forced me to get things i wouldn't normally cause i'd jus say it's not me..i swear this is my mother's revenge on me, she always said i was AhMa and i told her she was AhLian :D.
TJ Maxx is hell for my wallet and MommyK is the devil LOL i got this Kathy van Zeeland bag for $35, i don't think it's that bad to spend on this bag, it doesn't have alll the pockets i'd like it to have but it is a good size and a nice cheery yellow.
a definite change from what i'm used to buying, i have to tell you! i don't know why, i'm always used to getting 'safe' drab colours. at least it's less drastic than the zebra-print belted one she initially wanted me to get at SteinMart!
it's even got its own bling for added 'AhLian-ness' :D
i can hear you now. "where the hell are you going to wear that?" i don't know either but i love them! they are so cute! when i got this i also got my Winston-Salem killer heels, $15 for a pair of sexy shiny black BCBGirls heels. that was my absolute favourite buy cos it was so damn cheap.
and of course MommyK found a pair of gold wedges at TJ Maxx for $10. how to turn down i tell you?! it looked soo cool with my newly pedi-ed black toenails (pedi was also a first!).
yeah, i sound like a shopaholic. but i rarely go out to eat or even ANYWHERE here okay. so it's worth all of it! it's great spending my own money for the first time :)
wah. so late liaw. goodnight!
its right next to the Majestic Theater which hosts the Phantom of the Opera play. so i don't really have an excuse to go...even if i fork out $37 for a seat all the way in the back, i can still say i watched the Phantom in NYC!
so the trip is less than a month away and let me tell you, i seem to be not good at all on saving money for it...if you want to come to Winston-Salem and shop, MommyK is your best guide!
i always thought that i would love to have someone pick out stuff and say 'here, get this', and i found her! she's helped, or actually forced me to get things i wouldn't normally cause i'd jus say it's not me..i swear this is my mother's revenge on me, she always said i was AhMa and i told her she was AhLian :D.
TJ Maxx is hell for my wallet and MommyK is the devil LOL i got this Kathy van Zeeland bag for $35, i don't think it's that bad to spend on this bag, it doesn't have alll the pockets i'd like it to have but it is a good size and a nice cheery yellow.
a definite change from what i'm used to buying, i have to tell you! i don't know why, i'm always used to getting 'safe' drab colours. at least it's less drastic than the zebra-print belted one she initially wanted me to get at SteinMart!
it's even got its own bling for added 'AhLian-ness' :D
i can hear you now. "where the hell are you going to wear that?" i don't know either but i love them! they are so cute! when i got this i also got my Winston-Salem killer heels, $15 for a pair of sexy shiny black BCBGirls heels. that was my absolute favourite buy cos it was so damn cheap.and of course MommyK found a pair of gold wedges at TJ Maxx for $10. how to turn down i tell you?! it looked soo cool with my newly pedi-ed black toenails (pedi was also a first!).
yeah, i sound like a shopaholic. but i rarely go out to eat or even ANYWHERE here okay. so it's worth all of it! it's great spending my own money for the first time :)
wah. so late liaw. goodnight!
heavy heavy head
and possibly
sounds fun and exciting! but planning for it? omg headACHE man..
i'm sure it'll be worth it though!
just go for it, cause i probably won't get a chance for a holiday like this for a long, long time.
and YOU, you damn idiot, putting so many questions in my head now. but i have to admit you are right about most things though. but still. my argument is that ignorance is bliss.
i guess my main question now, that applies to evrything is, should i just seize the chances that come to me? or just play safe?
somehow, losing someone close to you changes your whole big-picture view. on one hand, life is short, you never know what may happen, so just do what makes you happy and throw yourself into the moment.
on the other hand. be realistic and think that, no, you won't die in the next second, you have to think things through in the long term and 'do the right thing', or take the safe option.
ugh. headache and backache. going to lie down.
i need a new bag
the inner zipper on my ciplak Miu Miu broke. i saw an almost-perfect-but-for-the-material bag at Stein Mart:
there was this one and black and ZEBRA! omg it was so tempting. but so not me! right?
right?
this is my dream-will-never-have-cos-too-kiamsiap-bag
nearly $500 leh!! but it's so nice...dammit Wilh, you and your Coach obsession has rubbed off!
and yeah, i just want the Cole Haan one cos it has my name on it. i ebay-ed and it was $300! for a nice deep blue one. the shape is all wrong...but it's got my name!
yeah. i am a sucker for marketing like that. got a problem? :D
there was this one and black and ZEBRA! omg it was so tempting. but so not me! right?
right?
this is my dream-will-never-have-cos-too-kiamsiap-bag
nearly $500 leh!! but it's so nice...dammit Wilh, you and your Coach obsession has rubbed off!and yeah, i just want the Cole Haan one cos it has my name on it. i ebay-ed and it was $300! for a nice deep blue one. the shape is all wrong...but it's got my name!
yeah. i am a sucker for marketing like that. got a problem? :D
LabOR Day Weekend..Selamat Hari Merdeka :)
i just got back from this
good food, good company, great GREAT environment. going to sleep and waking up with the sound of waves crashing on the beach...absolutely beautiful.
still. i feel the emptiness.
dang it. it's been long enough. what's it going to take?
good food, good company, great GREAT environment. going to sleep and waking up with the sound of waves crashing on the beach...absolutely beautiful.still. i feel the emptiness.
dang it. it's been long enough. what's it going to take?
lazy Sunday afternoon...not! :D
was vacuuming my room today and i'd finally learned how to pull up the windows (yes, after a month and a half!) but i had the fan on and windows open and it was a beautiful sunny Sunday afternoon. Percy Sledge's 'When a Man Loves a Woman' was playing on my computer, and suddenly, i just felt a rush of....
southerness!
LOL!
here is my first photoshopped photo. like it? :D
yes yes. you don't have to tell me how lucky i am to be living in a place like this. i know.
southerness!
LOL!
here is my first photoshopped photo. like it? :Dyes yes. you don't have to tell me how lucky i am to be living in a place like this. i know.
to a fellow overseas Kuchingite :D
hey there pretty lady.
don't know if you remember me or will you even see this post, but we met once, briefly at Java Juice, then Open A for siobee and tauhu jui, u had gubak mee! lol.
anyway. was just reading your post and it just freaked me out cos you've said exactly how i feel. had a similar experience to yours a year and a half ago..doesn't seem that long ago..i lost my mother..and then i also 'lost' someone very close to me. kinda like a double whammy :P
i was loud and 'bubbly' and 'perky' as my friends say. like you, i found great delight in the smallest of things, but nowadays watching a 4th of July fireworks display, i can't muster anything more than a 'oh, that's nice.' :P
i'm sorry if i seem presumptuous. but i just wanted you to know you are not alone.
oh. i had a dream about her last night. i can't remember any of it, but i can remember how it felt to be with her.
i still miss her everyday.
don't know if you remember me or will you even see this post, but we met once, briefly at Java Juice, then Open A for siobee and tauhu jui, u had gubak mee! lol.
anyway. was just reading your post and it just freaked me out cos you've said exactly how i feel. had a similar experience to yours a year and a half ago..doesn't seem that long ago..i lost my mother..and then i also 'lost' someone very close to me. kinda like a double whammy :P
i was loud and 'bubbly' and 'perky' as my friends say. like you, i found great delight in the smallest of things, but nowadays watching a 4th of July fireworks display, i can't muster anything more than a 'oh, that's nice.' :P
i'm sorry if i seem presumptuous. but i just wanted you to know you are not alone.
oh. i had a dream about her last night. i can't remember any of it, but i can remember how it felt to be with her.
i still miss her everyday.
a friend in need
Dear Pikachu, thank you very much for your email. i'd like to reply it in a long version but i just wanted to drop something here to let you know how much i appreciate your words of encouragement. our life sure sounds like most of us at this age now. so just know you're not alone in that :)
i guess most people who know me must think my life is grand, earning US bucks and going abroad. well guys..it's not that simple. i seem to be the odd one out most of the time, in terms of being an intern, being a guest in a family home, being WITHOUT A CAR, being an Asian..
some may think those are silly, unimportant things. but for a person like me, for whom human relations is a very important factor in her life, those things stand out to me every day. i've said it before and i'll say it again. if i wasn't making good money but i was in a job i thoroughly enjoyed and felt i was contributing to, and had an environment where i had good and dependable friends, it would be more than enough.
i went to the store and bought some pretty things to make myself feel better, as someone recommended i do. what do you think makes a more lasting impression in your memory, a new wallet or a good and long conversation with a person you feel totally at ease with?
see where i'm coming from now? :P
Well, Pikachu, my message to you kinda ended at the first paragraph. i just wanted to make a point to anyone who might happen to read this. again, i really do appreciate your email, it's so good to know that someone out there is thinking of you and cares for you. i know you're not the only one, there's all those people whom i put in my Facebook album too :)
if you really sit down and think about what this life is for, which one would you choose?
i guess most people who know me must think my life is grand, earning US bucks and going abroad. well guys..it's not that simple. i seem to be the odd one out most of the time, in terms of being an intern, being a guest in a family home, being WITHOUT A CAR, being an Asian..
some may think those are silly, unimportant things. but for a person like me, for whom human relations is a very important factor in her life, those things stand out to me every day. i've said it before and i'll say it again. if i wasn't making good money but i was in a job i thoroughly enjoyed and felt i was contributing to, and had an environment where i had good and dependable friends, it would be more than enough.
i went to the store and bought some pretty things to make myself feel better, as someone recommended i do. what do you think makes a more lasting impression in your memory, a new wallet or a good and long conversation with a person you feel totally at ease with?
see where i'm coming from now? :P
Well, Pikachu, my message to you kinda ended at the first paragraph. i just wanted to make a point to anyone who might happen to read this. again, i really do appreciate your email, it's so good to know that someone out there is thinking of you and cares for you. i know you're not the only one, there's all those people whom i put in my Facebook album too :)
if you really sit down and think about what this life is for, which one would you choose?
Dr Bombay!!
yes i was talking to him this evening :D CoNgRaTuLaTiOnS by the way!!! i guess it's lucky i dumped you as my backup, you weren't a very good one anyway!
so he intro-ed me to this song. yes, i have shitloads else to blog, but lazy la! heheh. it gets to you man!
inside joke. only those in the know! lol
so he intro-ed me to this song. yes, i have shitloads else to blog, but lazy la! heheh. it gets to you man!
inside joke. only those in the know! lol
my daily essentials
wah. so american hor?but it's hard to go to the office, use a Mac, come home n switch back to normal PC. bleargh.
oh btw. the ipod is not mine! is some lady left it there. crazy eh!! the music in there is. odd. indie rock, a bit of classic rock, country (a must for evry Ipod in the South).
if you can see it, i love the song that's on the screen. go get it if you can.
mouse looks cool, but so not used to it la. have to keep cleaning it every so often due to my stupid hyperhydrosis.
sweaty palms la! yuks right.
feel so. jaded? damn aunty visit. self-esteem is taking a beating now. i want to go home and cry in my grandma's arms.
Lifesavers Wint-O-Green
tastes like.
'hong yiu' (minyak cap kapak).
eeks.
and that's my food review for the day! lol
the strangeness of the Net
so i'm sitting here looking up stuff, i type in 'Menorah Medical Center' and what do i get?
http://groups.google.com/group/cexqyoboyqxurbyylradaqu/web/menorah-medical-center-kansas-city-mo
go and read it. scroll down a bit to where there are huge lumps of paragraphs that just don't make any sense. for example:
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wtf?!!!
makes for interesting reading though.
http://groups.google.com/group/cexqyoboyqxurbyylradaqu/web/menorah-medical-center-kansas-city-mo
go and read it. scroll down a bit to where there are huge lumps of paragraphs that just don't make any sense. for example:
"Her sister," menorah medical center kansas city mo said, menorah medical center kansas city mo was young a certain great philosopher with open arms. Her mind emptied itself of menorah medical center kansas city mo by moving a compass-needle to one of his greatest need. This then was by menorah medical center kansas city mo in no less than this. And yet I'm not trying to figure out how Stringfellow devised an hypothesis of electrical images, which became a man becomes a spectacle and, if menorah medical center kansas city mo want menorah medical center kansas city mo to pay out westward to Newfoundland. 'Spare his blushes! Beetle charms menorah medical center kansas city mo first.' Beetle stood up, "You could tell menorah medical center kansas city mo was away from menorah medical center kansas city mo. The menorah medical center kansas city mo with room stinks with sweat, dirty linen, Grover's oaths and the evil day thus for some strange communion service. "
wtf?!!!
makes for interesting reading though.
words words words...
words are words are words..
believe them.
disbelieve them.
believe that they are true, for the moment, however gloriously prolonged or painfully shortened that moment might last.
allow yourself to be swept away by the current of magical, sparking fantasy that could just....just...turn into reality one day...
or.
hide forever in the dark forsaken corners of your pitiful fear.
and be safe.
nothing will happen to you then.
but then again, nothing will happen to you then.
believe them.
disbelieve them.
believe that they are true, for the moment, however gloriously prolonged or painfully shortened that moment might last.
allow yourself to be swept away by the current of magical, sparking fantasy that could just....just...turn into reality one day...
or.
hide forever in the dark forsaken corners of your pitiful fear.
and be safe.
nothing will happen to you then.
but then again, nothing will happen to you then.
*pant...pant...*
i have finally found.....the holy grail....
but at 6am in the morning! gosh...
the price you pay for all that wholesome American food...
Gilad...SAVE ME!!
with friends like these.... :))))
so i woke up at 4.30am to finish my damn ampullary stenosis presentation and was procrastinating yet again by checking my yahoo mail which i haven't, in AGES.
and found an email! i thought it was a forwarded one at first, Pikachu is notorious for that :D (see i got you a new nickname, Angelic-Scamp too long la :D Pikachu is the original one right?) but when i opened it, it was a REAL email!
man, i suck. i like getting stuff, but i'm always bad at reciprocating. tomato plants! argh. selfish me.
anywayyy...THANK YOU PIKACHU!!! you put a big smile on my face. made me feel less lonely :D
most of the people i know probably think "ah well, she's used to going abroad, meeting new people, living on her own.."
weHhell...i'm not as strong as you think...but i'm trying. i think i'm under a lot of stress living here, trying to make a good impression, adjusting to a new culture (yes, it is new to me, despite what you think of my angmoh-khuan-ness), being around people that i don't know at all...
i like being thought of. and yes, i do think of all of you, at one time or another during my day :)
here's the song i got with the email. at least someone's helping to update me on the music scene! :D
and found an email! i thought it was a forwarded one at first, Pikachu is notorious for that :D (see i got you a new nickname, Angelic-Scamp too long la :D Pikachu is the original one right?) but when i opened it, it was a REAL email!
man, i suck. i like getting stuff, but i'm always bad at reciprocating. tomato plants! argh. selfish me.
anywayyy...THANK YOU PIKACHU!!! you put a big smile on my face. made me feel less lonely :D
most of the people i know probably think "ah well, she's used to going abroad, meeting new people, living on her own.."
weHhell...i'm not as strong as you think...but i'm trying. i think i'm under a lot of stress living here, trying to make a good impression, adjusting to a new culture (yes, it is new to me, despite what you think of my angmoh-khuan-ness), being around people that i don't know at all...
i like being thought of. and yes, i do think of all of you, at one time or another during my day :)
here's the song i got with the email. at least someone's helping to update me on the music scene! :D
whoa...
so here i am procrastinating again. okay i am getting somewhere in my research but along the way i happened to stumble on this website:
http://www.histopathology-india.net/ValvDi2.htm
okay so basically about 2-3 months after all my shyte came down, i was having this weird heart thing, so i went to see a doctor and he diagnosed me with MVP.
no, it doesn't mean i'm a Most Valuable Player :P it stands for Mithril Valve Prolapse. the doc said it wasn't that bad.
but this is what the site has to say about it:
wah..so morbid hor!
http://www.histopathology-india.net/ValvDi2.htm
okay so basically about 2-3 months after all my shyte came down, i was having this weird heart thing, so i went to see a doctor and he diagnosed me with MVP.
no, it doesn't mean i'm a Most Valuable Player :P it stands for Mithril Valve Prolapse. the doc said it wasn't that bad.
but this is what the site has to say about it:
Floppy Mitral Valve / Mitral Valve Prolapse / Barlow's Syndrome - (Myxomatous degeneration of the mitral valve) : Image Link
One or both mitral valve leaflets are enlarged, myxomatous and floppy and they prolapse into the left atrium during systole causing midsystolic click and mitral valve insufficiency.
The disease occurs in the age group of 20 to 40 years and may be due to developmental anomaly affecting connective tissues (as it is common in Marfan syndrome).
Clinical presentation : This is usually asymptomatic and discovered only as a midsystolic click on auscultation. It may be associated with atypical chest pain, dyspnea, fatigue or psychiatric symptoms like depression, anxiety etc.
Patients have an increased risk of infective endocarditis, congestive heart failure, arrhythmias and sudden death.
cue creepy echoey 'muahahahahaha....'
holy crap man!!!
wah..so morbid hor!
??!!! :DDDD
hohoho. i just got an SMS from the most unexpected of persons.
made me sooo SHOCKED man. not syiok k! i was gonna put shocked in the SMS but i know will kena suan again. so replaced it with 'surprised'. nyahahaha. smart lehh.
tried to find a photo but nada. how come it's so difficult to get a photo of Jacob's Vegetable crackers?
thanks anyway, lion. even if it wasn't you. which i bet it wasnt! you made my day!
made me sooo SHOCKED man. not syiok k! i was gonna put shocked in the SMS but i know will kena suan again. so replaced it with 'surprised'. nyahahaha. smart lehh.
tried to find a photo but nada. how come it's so difficult to get a photo of Jacob's Vegetable crackers?
thanks anyway, lion. even if it wasn't you. which i bet it wasnt! you made my day!
and on that note..
i just realised that maybe i'm being a bit unfair on myself and focusing on the black spot on the white shirt again as someone might say ;)
cause there are times when certain memories hit me...and i feel my face break out into a big grin and i hop up and down like a crazy person.
only when no one's watching though :)
my heart feels so full it might burst. and all from something that just popped up in my mind.
i am very much loved. and i am thankful for that.
cause there are times when certain memories hit me...and i feel my face break out into a big grin and i hop up and down like a crazy person.
only when no one's watching though :)
my heart feels so full it might burst. and all from something that just popped up in my mind.
i am very much loved. and i am thankful for that.
in a state of zombieness
okay. so that post took like. AGES to put up. that happened last tuesday i think. and i'm usually eager to have a food review up.
i feel like i'm slowly dying. so dramatic! but it's like. SLOWWWLYYY. like if your happiness was physical and you had a big big ball of it, it would feel like someone taking a penknife and slowly flicking off a small piece of it, every day.
i've lost it, i've lost my 'spark', my burst of happiness evrytime i meet someone new or experience something new. i refuse to give in to....jadeity? i don't want to be like this, it's not me.
i can't figure out what it is at all. not homesick, although i do miss home in the normal fashion. not lurvesick, although i miss Diehard a lot. a lot a lot.
must be getting aunty visit soon. dammit.
i feel like i'm slowly dying. so dramatic! but it's like. SLOWWWLYYY. like if your happiness was physical and you had a big big ball of it, it would feel like someone taking a penknife and slowly flicking off a small piece of it, every day.
i've lost it, i've lost my 'spark', my burst of happiness evrytime i meet someone new or experience something new. i refuse to give in to....jadeity? i don't want to be like this, it's not me.
i can't figure out what it is at all. not homesick, although i do miss home in the normal fashion. not lurvesick, although i miss Diehard a lot. a lot a lot.
must be getting aunty visit soon. dammit.
Waldo's Wings
so MommyK and JK had gone to the beach for the week, and MK was at camp. Which left me and DaddyK fending for ourselves for dinner. the first day we had Subways. OldMan was freaking out cos he hates Subs but i love them! always want to order something else but always go back to my beloved Italian B.M.T!!
i guess DaddyK felt bad because the next day he brought me out to this place. now, don't even bother asking me for directions or anything! It's one of the must-try all-American food on my list, buffalo wings.
i didn't really know what to expect so i was pleasantly surprised by the interior. HEAPS of nascar, beer (Bud and Coors) and cigarette (Camel) memorabilia, surround wooden chairs and tables or booths if you'd like a more private dining experience ;) felt like a fun place.
i had a Bud Light courtesy of DaddyK before we got there, so i opted for pink lemonade instead, i'd never tried it and saw it on The Sound of Music in the hotel room in KL. what can i say? it's just like more 'flowery' Sprite.
next time i come here i'll have to go for a salad and try the malt vinegar. fyi, the hot sauce tastes almost exactly like that chilli sauce from Sabah that Paikut's sister gets.
wow. this is the first time i've mentioned him and it took me awhile to get the name.
first up: sliced potatos deep-fried and served with cheese sauce. yeah, you can guess by now this is going to be a cholestrol-inducing meal! OH MANN they were goood, i liked that some of them were a bit thicker and had more bite to it whereas some were thinner and had a great crunch. the cheese sauce was a bit thick to cling onto the chips but great and not plasticy-tasting nonetheless.
yes, i just used that word okay. so sue me!
red peppers stuffed with cream cheese and then fried in a crunchy batter...you know that's going to work. the red sauce is slightly spicy and cool, almost jammy-like.
the cool cream cheese and spicy pepper really balance out, and the batter was good, not too thick and perfectly crunchy even after it had been left out for awhile.
mozzarella sticks! with salsa sauce...now why didn't i ever think of that?? 
bad photo...sorry...was just too eager to get that cheesy, stretchy stick into my mouth! i like it without the sauce though, but it takes the richness off if you've had too much i guess :) 
and here is the MAIN meal of the day, buffalo wings! in medium hot, which i came to regret, cos after Thailand i discovered i lovee spicy food. DaddyK gave me the cheese toast on top which i only had one bite out of, cause who wants to waste stomach space on bread when there's that gorgeous spread above?
okay, so when we were finished it wasn't so gorgeous anymore. Yes, we didn't finish the chips and yes, we didn't tapao. sigh. so waste hor? but he said not to. and i am staying at his house.
i'm definitely going back!
i guess DaddyK felt bad because the next day he brought me out to this place. now, don't even bother asking me for directions or anything! It's one of the must-try all-American food on my list, buffalo wings.
i didn't really know what to expect so i was pleasantly surprised by the interior. HEAPS of nascar, beer (Bud and Coors) and cigarette (Camel) memorabilia, surround wooden chairs and tables or booths if you'd like a more private dining experience ;) felt like a fun place.
i had a Bud Light courtesy of DaddyK before we got there, so i opted for pink lemonade instead, i'd never tried it and saw it on The Sound of Music in the hotel room in KL. what can i say? it's just like more 'flowery' Sprite.
next time i come here i'll have to go for a salad and try the malt vinegar. fyi, the hot sauce tastes almost exactly like that chilli sauce from Sabah that Paikut's sister gets.wow. this is the first time i've mentioned him and it took me awhile to get the name.
first up: sliced potatos deep-fried and served with cheese sauce. yeah, you can guess by now this is going to be a cholestrol-inducing meal! OH MANN they were goood, i liked that some of them were a bit thicker and had more bite to it whereas some were thinner and had a great crunch. the cheese sauce was a bit thick to cling onto the chips but great and not plasticy-tasting nonetheless.yes, i just used that word okay. so sue me!
red peppers stuffed with cream cheese and then fried in a crunchy batter...you know that's going to work. the red sauce is slightly spicy and cool, almost jammy-like.
the cool cream cheese and spicy pepper really balance out, and the batter was good, not too thick and perfectly crunchy even after it had been left out for awhile.
mozzarella sticks! with salsa sauce...now why didn't i ever think of that?? 
bad photo...sorry...was just too eager to get that cheesy, stretchy stick into my mouth! i like it without the sauce though, but it takes the richness off if you've had too much i guess :) 
and here is the MAIN meal of the day, buffalo wings! in medium hot, which i came to regret, cos after Thailand i discovered i lovee spicy food. DaddyK gave me the cheese toast on top which i only had one bite out of, cause who wants to waste stomach space on bread when there's that gorgeous spread above?
okay, so when we were finished it wasn't so gorgeous anymore. Yes, we didn't finish the chips and yes, we didn't tapao. sigh. so waste hor? but he said not to. and i am staying at his house.i'm definitely going back!